I remember sitting in a chair in front of my window in the early days of Meniere's - I had a beautiful apartment with floor to ceiling windows - looking down at the people walking by, wishing I had their freedom.
I would sit there from the time I woke up until I went to bed. I remember thinking, "Wow, the sun is going down already".
I can't remember what I used to think about in these in-between attack times, because I was in a depressive trance.
I was weak physically from not eating, I wasn't getting help of any kind from anybody. My phone never rang. I had no plan.
It was the kind of aimless staring in the distance that people experience when every part of them believes they have nothing to live for.
Back then I was suffering 3 or 4 episodes a week, and in between them I would sit at this huge window and have these long lapses of lost time.
I got to the point where I knew that if I wanted different kinds of experiences, I would have to learn different things.
This is when I started thinking of things like how I should be eating - not just low sodium, but in a way that would help my body heal. How I should be thinking so that even if I had these attacks for the rest of my life, at least I would have times in between them that felt more like living.
I would go ask grocery store employees how to find the gluten free food. I would take a drive to the health food store and look at things on the shelves - things I had never heard of.
I started reading books about how we think about ourselves. I started meditating.
What came to me over time was this idea of how our bodies are dynamic - thoughts affect our physical well-being, food affects thoughts. Thoughts can affect symptoms because stress affects symptoms, and thoughts can create stress.
This was a very personal, internal growing period for me done in solitude. I began treating the management of a "disease" as management of well-being in all aspects of my life.
It's like seeing a small light within the darkness, and taking steps to give that tiny light more and more real estate.
I started taking walks instead of sitting by the window all day.
About 6 months later I had my first experience of my ear clearing and nothing bad happening. It just cleared.
On this day I knew everything was going to be ok.
I'm not writing to you today to say that if you do this or that, Meniere's will go away. That's old thinking.
I'm saying that what we think about and eat and agree to affect how capable we are to heal.
I'm saying that it's important to think of Meniere's management as a whole lifestyle management with emphasis on health, instead of avoiding sickness and avoiding life.
If you would like to be part of a small group of dedicated Meniere's warriors taking their life back, you're welcome to join me on a free 30-minute strategy call to see if my new coaching program will help you.
It's 12 weeks of 5 people choosing life, instead being forced to suffer life. We'll do it in this order:
1. Managing thoughts and emotions (ourselves)
2. Managing how we respond to incoming stress (others)
3. Using both in our individual lives we choose.
My intention is get you as healthy as possible emotionally, so that you can feel better physically.
This is the link for my personal schedule to book the call:
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